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The days that passed have been tough,
Trying to live one day at a time,
No thoughts of tomorrow, no plans,
Each moment a difficult task,
Each day a prayer.
Decisions were made, the past to forget
No regrets, I have to say,
Forgiveness had been asked and given
The lowest point of life to take,
The weakness and the loneliness to face.

A step forward a day,
Yet alone with God is the best reward to have.
On the “big” day which HE still gives me,
Thanking Him for the chance of wishes,
Which in my prayers these I include.
I wish I can still enjoy the people around me
Who in the past till now have given such comfort,
Whether far or near, they think of my wellness,
Guide me through it all….
“family” -- we named them…
With a love that binds us all.

I wish I can still laugh with them,
The people I’ve met along the way,
The differences we have are trivial
The small things shared are treasured.
I wish I can still face them and be true
With them, not a reminder of my pain
But to appreciate their presence all this time
“friends” -- we call them…
A blessing along the journey.

And I wish I can still love “me”
The me I often forget.
Maybe I have loved as I should
But lived as I shouldn’t.
I wish I can take care of this heart
And help it rest, help it heal
Empty it from hurt, that joy may enter it.
And I wish… and I wish
But more than wish I PRAY
To the LORD of Lords, and my King of kings,
Who has shown His love to me from the start till the end,
To let me know that in my weakness, He’s my Only strength,
In my ignorance, my Only wisdom
The learning how to move on, how to yield.
My wish and prayer of a year of letting go and letting God.
And to you, I say “thank you”…
For saying the same prayer with me.